Today I decided to go to Vegan Hut for food, and to study. I texted one friend to see if he wanted to go, and of course, got a resounding "Even if I was free, which I'm not, I wouldn't go. Gross." Expected answer. On my way out, I saw that friend who proceeded to question as to why I was going to eat vegan food. His friend whose name I don't know and who doesn't know my name asked me if I'm going alone. I say yes and he repeats the question. Then, some other people I know are walking up the steps to the dorm and they ask me what I'm doing. I tell them where I'm going and where it is and the question is the same: "You're going there? By yourself? That far?"
Yes, and here is why. After some incidences with other people, I have abandoned my search for someone who appreciates the same things that I do. Most people cannot fathom why I'd travel so far to eat vegan food. Most people cannot fathom why I'd even want to eat vegan food, or to even travel so far to eat. And those who I have taken with me on my excursions to find new places in Beijing... well, I've ranted before. Rather than drag someone into my perceiving, intuitive stupor, I've just decided to go at it alone. That way I don't have to worry about someone not liking it, I don't have to worry that it's too expensive for someone else, I don't have to worry that someone will get tired of traveling so far just to get food.
I probably sound crazy to a lot of people, but the fact is that although going out like this is rather lonely, it beats being hella stressed out from all the pressure you feel when you go with someone who isn't enjoying it as much as you do, and expects you to cater to their needs. We know by now that I am no longer trying to do that. So, I piss people off. I'm looking at you, Portuguese girl.
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http://thegrandnarrative.com/
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